A Blur

These past couple of weeks have been a complete blur...so many ups and downs I can't even catch my breath. I woke up April 30th to a text from my father saying that Papa had passed away early in the morning. I think I actually held my breath for over a minute until I exhaled...and stared at the wall for over an hour. I quickly got online afterward and began my normal routine of logging into my email, my facebook, my twitter, my blog, my youtube...drowning my thoughts with posts of fashion, fitness, and more....As I watched the posts begin to overflow facebook with condolences and memories...I saw THIS.

WHAT!!!!!!!!! My cousin was congratulating me on winning the HauteShots Boudoir Spokesmodel Contest....

Are you kidding me right now....I seriously ran to my husband with tears in my eyes not knowing whether to celebrate or cry...This was soooo much more than a "I get to wear lingerie and take photos" kind of contest for me...Celebrating my body, my strength...accepting who I am, what I look like, and where I come from. In some ways Papa had helped me get to this point. I mean...let's face it...We all know where we got our nose...our strong will, our stubbornness...sometimes overpowering and opinionated selves...our family has been through a lot...and while the story is lengthy and somewhat personal...our fight for life and passion for all we do..comes from Papa...and his life struggle...

So...I WON...I seriously WON....and YOU GUYS are part of the reason...I can't thank you enough...though I am not sure of the details..as this is the first Spokesmodel they have ever had...I am so honored to get to work with women who share the same passion as I do.I can't say it enough...the women of HauteShots are amazing...and I have said it before....EVERY women should have a set of photos they can look at and say....I am beautiful...and sexy....whether private or public....If you haven't checked them out yet..do... Kat (Makeup Artist), Whitney (hair stylist), Stacie (Photographer) and Rachel (Hair stylist) were incredible to work with..and after 3 minutes of nerves...I felt sooo comfortable and beautiful...and if you are ever in Vegas...get yourself some sexy get ups and be a part of this experience..I promise you...you will be forever changed...

Have a wonderful weekend and Happy Mother's Day to all you momma's out there....My sister and my dad will be sharing some memories of my mom and breakfast as per usual and a phone call to my wonderful mother-in law who I wish lived closer to us...Love you all!

P.S. Don't forget to Enter the Giveaway going on from Fashion to Figure!!! The first of many thank you to all of you!